hen we see rich and famous celebrities, it's easy to think they have it made and are somehow immune to the insecurities and issues that the average person deals with. But they battle the same demons, even Selena Gomez, the insanely famous singer who is also the most popular person on Instagram.
But as she reveals in Vogue, she's no longer handling her own Instagram account, and not just because she's too busy (although that would be a legit excuse). Check out some her comments from the eye-opening interview below.
Last October, the 24-year-old checked into rehab due to “side effects from lupus.” The singer canceled the rest of her Revival tour, in order to take some time to focus on her mental health.
"Tours are a really lonely place for me," she said. "My self-esteem was shot. I was depressed, anxious."
“I started to have panic attacks right before getting on stage or right after leaving the stage,” she continued. “Basically I felt I wasn’t good enough, wasn’t capable. I felt I wasn’t giving my fans anything, and they could see it — which, I think, was a complete distortion.”
She described the experience of being in rehab with, "Real people who couldn’t give two s--ts about who I was, who were fighting for their lives."
While she was in treatment she quit using social media, and even removed the Instagram app from her phone.
“As soon as I became the most followed person on Instagram, I sort of freaked out,” Gomez recalls. “It had become so consuming to me. It’s what I woke up to and went to sleep to. I was an addict, and it felt like I was seeing things I didn’t want to see, like it was putting things in my head that I didn’t want to care about.”
"I always end up feeling like shit when I look at Instagram," said the singer, who has 113 million followers. "Which is why I’m kind of under the radar, ghosting it a bit."
She said of her instagram friends, “maybe two are famous.” And that she only keeps in touch with a small number of people on social media.
Speaking of fame, she’s really not such a fan.
"Look, I love what I do, and I'm aware of how lucky I am, but — how can I say this without sounding weird? — I just really can't wait for people to forget about me," she said.
That’s probably not going to happen any time soon, but kudos to her for kicking the insta habit and for being authentic throughout the process.
Rock on, Selena.