rammy award winner Kelly Clarkson recently sat down with Attitude magazine to open up about a difficult period in her life. Clarkson rose to fame in 2002 after winning the first season of the biggest singing competition at the time, American Idol. She inked a deal with RCA Records and her first single A Moment Like This was the single best-selling song of 2002. She seemed to have the fairytale life.
Everything she'd ever dreamed of was happening.
Here was a girl from Burleson, Texas who burst out of seemingly nowhere to become the single most recognizable voice of the year. Her first album Thankful was well received, and her single “Miss Independent” seared the international charts.
She even did a movie called From Justin To Kelly with Justin Guarini! Remember that?
Although the film was poorly received, Clarkson’s sophomore album Breakway was an instant hit, debuting at number three on the Billboard 200 and going platinum six times.
Clarkson's life may have seemed like a dream, but she was actually struggling.
She faced intense pressure from her record label and executives to stay thin as well as to conform to their ideas of what her career should be. As she said to Redbook in 2015, “There are just some people who are born skinny and with a great metabolism – that is not me. I wish I had a better metabolism.”
Clarkson, like many of us, found it difficult to keep the weight off.
“I… wrecked my knees and my feet because all I would do is put in headphones and run. I was at the gym all the time,” Clarkson told Attitude.
The constant exercising and worries about weight reportedly took a toll on Clarkson.
“When I was really skinny, I wanted to kill myself,” Clarkson said. “I was miserable, like inside and out, for four years of my life. But no one cared, because aesthetically you make sense… It was a very dark time for me. I thought the only way out was quitting.”