Following a very traumatic couple of months, Chrissy Teigen has spoken out about "normalizing formula" for new mothers.
A taboo subject, we know! Do you agree with Chrissy? Read on to see what she had to say...
Of course, it's been a difficult few months for the Legend family.In September this year, Chrissy Teigen and her husband, John Legend, tragically lost their third and unborn child, Jack.
Ever since, the pair have remained relatively under the radar...
Now, the Legends have long been family goals.
Chrissy regularly posts about family life on Instagram...
And, a couple of months ago, the couple made the exciting announcement they were having another baby...
via: YouTubeVia music video, of course! The video was for John's new track, "Wild", and it showed the couple on a white linen bed on the beach.
And, as the song draws to a close...
via: YouTubeWe get an unexpected, yet very exciting shot of the pair.
A pregnancy bump!
via: YouTubeYep, the Legends were officially going to become a family of 5.
At the end of the video, their 2 other children join in the fun...
via: YouTubeAnd they all walk towards the ocean together as a family.
However, Chrissy was candid with her turbulent pregnancy from the get-go.
The little girl had apparently been running baths for her mom every day...
But sadly, Luna's efforts to look after her mom were to little avail.
via: GettyReports came in 2 months ago that Chrissy had been hospitalized.
The star took to social media to update her worried fans.
via: Getty"So, we all know I've been on bed rest for a few weeks. And that's like super serious bed rest, like get up to quickly pee and that's it. I would take baths twice a week, no showering. I was always, always bleeding... I'm about halfway through pregnancy and blood has been going for a month...maybe a little less than a month. But we're talking more than your period, girls, but definitely not spotting. A lot of people spot and it's usually fine. Mine was a lot."
She went on to explain that every time she would go to the bathroom, there would be blood.
It’s a hospital, john https://t.co/thyf2TevGN— chrissy teigen (@chrissy teigen)1601270580.0
"I guess in the simplest of terms, we can say my placenta is really, really weak."
via: Getty"But I feel really good. The baby is so healthy, growing stronger than Luna or Miles. He moves a lot. He moves so much earlier than they ever did. He's strong. I'm so excited for him because he's so wonderful, the strongest little dude. So, I can't wait for him."
But it seems that all of these complications were a devastating sign.
via: TwitterSharing a series of moving black and white photographs from the hospital, Chrissy announced shortly afterwards that she and John had tragically lost their third unborn child.
They had already settled on a name for their little boy.
via: InstagramShe wrote: "We never decide on our babies’ names until the last possible moment after they’re born, just before we leave the hospital. But we, for some reason, had started to call this little guy in my belly Jack. So he will always be Jack to us. Jack worked so hard to be a part of our little family, and he will be, forever."
She apologized to her son...
via: Instagram"To our Jack - I’m so sorry that the first few moments of your life were met with so many complications, that we couldn’t give you the home you needed to survive. We will always love you. Thank you to everyone who has been sending us positive energy, thoughts and prayers. We feel all of your love and truly appreciate you."
Chrissy then acknowledged the things that she and John are grateful for...
In the weeks following their devastating loss, both Chrissy and John remained firmly offline.Medium.
In the deeply personal piece simply titled "Hi," the star started off by explaining that she didn't know when she would be ready to address her son's death."I had no idea when I would be ready to write this. Part of me thought it would be early on, when I was still really feeling the pain of what happened. I thought I would sit in the corner of my bedroom with the lights dimmed, just rolling off my thoughts. I’d have a glass of red wine, cozy up with a blanket, and finally get the chance to address 'what happened'."
She took some time to thank fans for their support...
She then moved onto talking about the day she lost Jack.
Chrissy explained that she was admitted to the hospital after persistent bleeding and multiple blood transfusions, as well as being diagnosed with partial placenta abruption.
"I could have spent these days at the hospital, but not much of a difference would have been made. I was still seen by doctors at home, silently twisting their negative words into positives, thinking that everything might still turn out okay."
She then described the heartwrenching moment she was told it was time to say goodbye.
"Late one night, I was told it would be time to let go in the morning."
"After hours, I was able to relax, and decided I wanted to wait until I really, really knew it was over.""I stupidly compared it to dogs I had “put down" in the past — how I never wanted to let go until we absolutely knew it was time, that they were suffering far too much. I texted this to my doctor and she said 'absolutely.' "Later that night, I went to the bathroom, looked down into the toilet (I had been doing this for months), and broke down again. The sheer amount of blood and clots showed me exactly what I had been waiting for. It was time."
"I’m not sure I’ll ever forget the experience."
via: Getty"I’m not sure I’ll ever forget the experience. I had always laughed about how much I loved epidurals…not so much this one. I laid there for hours, waiting to be told it was time to push. I obviously never had to dilate much, he was still a tiny little guy. "I had been laying on my side, switching sides every hour or so, whenever the nurse told me to. I remember laying on my right side, looking opposite of John, when I was told to make my switch. I opened my legs and started to turn to face John and just like that, he was on his way out. The doctors yelled for a bit and…I don’t know what to say, even now. He was out."
"My mom, John, and I each held him and said our own private goodbyes, mom sobbing through Thai prayer."
via: Images"I asked the nurses to show me his hands and feet and I kissed them over and over and over again. I have no idea when I stopped. It could have been 10 minutes or an hour." I dunno how long he had been waiting to be delivered for. That will probably always haunt me. Just writing it makes my nose and eyes tingle with tears. All I know now is his ashes are in a small box, waiting to be put into the soil of a tree in our new home, the one we got with his room in mind."
"People say an experience like this creates a hole in your heart. A hole was certainly made, but it was filled with the love of something I loved so much. It doesn’t feel empty, this space. It feels full."
Here's the full essay.
The family is trying to ease themselves back into normality...And it's clear that Chrissy is slowly getting back into the thing she's best at - giving brutally honest parenting advice online!
Yesterday, the mom decided to take to Twitter to share her opinions on new mom's using formula instead of breast milk.
ok I'm gonna say something and you all are definitely gonna make it a thing but here goes: normalize formula.— chrissy teigen (@chrissy teigen)1606670130.0
Chrissy outlined that the majority of moms don't actually experience a "normal pregnancy.""Normalize breastfeeding is such a huge, wonderful thing. But I absolutely felt way more shame having to use formula because of lack of milk from depression and whatnot," she said. "People have surrogates, people have trouble breastfeeding, and all you hear as a new, anxious mom is how breast is best."
She then spoke of her personal experiences of breastfeeding...
I remember pumping my ASS OFF, highest mode, so often, because I didn't trust milk was going into their mouthes if… https://t.co/wWVibqPVbZ— chrissy teigen (@chrissy teigen)1606671146.0
She ended her thread with...
the stress of it, combined with the guilt that you cannot do nature's most natural thing for your own baby is too m… https://t.co/Qez1O4kkNu— chrissy teigen (@chrissy teigen)1606671267.0