Chrissy Teigen and John Legend have been refreshingly candid about the tragic loss of their unborn son, Jack. And their latest tribute may just be the sweetest yet...
It's been just a few weeks since Chrissy Teigen released those heartbreaking photos of her son, Jack's stillbirth.
via: GettyThe distraught mom made the emotional announcement to fans that her son had passed away, and it was utterly devastating to read.
And following the loss, the pair have been pretty silent on their social media while they grieve.
via: GettyBut, now, Chrissy Teigen has broken her silence.
The star has penned a lengthy personal essay for Medium on losing Jack.
Chrissy Teigen and John Legend are Hollywood's sweethearts and long-standing idols in the parenting community.
via: GettyThe pair got together over a decade ago and have gone from strength to strength ever since.
After 4 years of dating, John was down on one knee...
The pair got hitched on September 14, 2013, in Lake Como.
They have since cemented themselves as a firm Hollywood power couple.
via: GettyThe two are a pivotal part of the celebrity scene and their fans lap it up (especially where Chrissy's relatable social media posts are concerned... let's be honest, she's comedy gold!)
The couple share 2 children together...
Chrissy regularly posts about family life on Instagram...
The couple made the exciting announcement they were having another baby a few months ago...
via: YouTubeVia music video. The video was for John's new track, "Wild", and it showed the couple on a white linen bed on the beach.
Some of the lyrics include:
via: YouTube"I wanna drive you wild, wild, wild. I wanna love you for miles and miles. We can go slow, we don't need to rush. I'll take the wheel, make you feel every touch. I wanna drive you wild, wild, wild."
But, as the song draws to a close...
via: YouTubeWe get an unexpected, yet very exciting shot of the pair.
A pregnancy bump.
via: YouTubeYep, the Legends were officially going to be a family of 5.
At the end of the video, their 2 other children join in the fun...
via: YouTubeAnd they all walk towards the ocean together as a family.
However, Chrissy faced a hard few months of the pregnancy.
via: GettyBecause we all know how tiring it is to be pregnant! But luckily for her, 4-year-old Luna was on hand to make life as easy as possible.
Luna was very hands-on at the ultra-sound...
Luna took things to the next level when it came to looking after her mom.
The little girl had been running baths for her mom every day...
But sadly, it seems that Luna's efforts to look after her mom were to little avail.
via: GettyReports came in recently that Chrissy had been hospitalized.
The star took to social media to update her worried fans.
via: Getty"So, we all know I've been on bed rest for a few weeks. And that's like super serious bed rest, like get up to quickly pee and that's it. I would take baths twice a week, no showering. I was always, always bleeding... I'm about halfway through pregnancy and blood has been going for a month...maybe a little less than a month. But we're talking more than your period, girls, but definitely not spotting. A lot of people spot and it's usually fine. Mine was a lot."
She went on to explain that every time she would go to the bathroom, there would be blood.
It’s a hospital, john https://t.co/thyf2TevGN— chrissy teigen (@chrissy teigen)1601270580.0
Chrissy went on to urge doctors on social media to stop trying to diagnose her.
I just shared as much as you need to know about what’s goin on, on insta stories - medical Twitter I beg you to ple… https://t.co/JYmIwxq3UK— chrissy teigen (@chrissy teigen)1601264003.0
"I guess in the simplest of terms, we can say my placenta is really, really weak."
via: Getty"But I feel really good. The baby is so healthy, growing stronger than Luna or Miles. He moves a lot. He moves so much earlier than they ever did. He's strong. I'm so excited for him because he's so wonderful, the strongest little dude. So, I can't wait for him."
But it seems that all of these complications were a sign.
via: TwitterAnd it was announced shortly afterwards that Chrissy and John tragically lost their third unborn child.
Chrissy and John had already settled on a name for their little boy.
via: Instagram"We never decide on our babies’ names until the last possible moment after they’re born, just before we leave the hospital. But we, for some reason, had started to call this little guy in my belly Jack. So he will always be Jack to us. Jack worked so hard to be a part of our little family, and he will be, forever."
She apologized to her son..."To our Jack - I’m so sorry that the first few moments of your life were met with so many complications, that we couldn’t give you the home you needed to survive. We will always love you. Thank you to everyone who has been sending us positive energy, thoughts and prayers. We feel all of your love and truly appreciate you."
Chrissy then acknowledged the things that she and John are grateful for...
And, just a few weeks after she shared these heartbreaking photos from her stillbirth...Medium.
In the deeply personal piece simply titled "Hi," the star starts off by explaining that she didn't know when she would be ready to address her son's death.
"Instead, I’m writing from the downstairs couch, still cozied up in a blanket but buzzing from a morning of friends and fried chicken."
She took some time to thank fans for their support...
She admitted to being in no state to reply to kind messages...
She then moved onto talking about the day she lost Jack.
Chrissy explained that she was admitted to hospital after persistent bleeding and multiple blood transfusions, and diagnosed with partial placenta abruption.
"I could have spent these days at the hospital, but not much of a difference would have been made. I was still seen by doctors at home, silently twisting their negative words into positives, thinking that everything might still turn out okay."
She also explained why she took those heartbreaking photos.
"I cannot express how little I care that you hate the photos."
She then described the heartwrenching moment she was told it was time to say goodbye.
"Late one night, I was told it would be time to let go in the morning."
"After hours, I was able to relax, and decided I wanted to wait until I really, really knew it was over."
via: Getty Images"I stupidly compared it to dogs I had “put down" in the past — how I never wanted to let go until we absolutely knew it was time, that they were suffering far too much. I texted this to my doctor and she said 'absolutely.' "Later that night, I went to the bathroom, looked down into the toilet (I had been doing this for months), and broke down again. The sheer amount of blood and clots showed me exactly what I had been waiting for. It was time."
"I’m not sure I’ll ever forget the experience."
via: Getty Images"I’m not sure I’ll ever forget the experience. I had always laughed about how much I loved epidurals…not so much this one. I laid there for hours, waiting to be told it was time to push. I obviously never had to dilate much, he was still a tiny little guy. "I had been laying on my side, switching sides every hour or so, whenever the nurse told me to. I remember laying on my right side, looking opposite of John, when I was told to make my switch. I opened my legs and started to turn to face John and just like that, he was on his way out. The doctors yelled for a bit and…I don’t know what to say, even now. He was out."
"My mom, John, and I each held him and said our own private goodbyes, mom sobbing through Thai prayer."
via: Getty Images"I asked the nurses to show me his hands and feet and I kissed them over and over and over again. I have no idea when I stopped. It could have been 10 minutes or an hour."
"I dunno how long he had been waiting to be delivered for. That will probably always haunt me."
via: Getty Images"Just writing it makes my nose and eyes tingle with tears. All I know now is his ashes are in a small box, waiting to be put into the soil of a tree in our new home, the one we got with his room in mind."
"People say an experience like this creates a hole in your heart. A hole was certainly made, but it was filled with the love of something I loved so much. It doesn’t feel empty, this space. It feels full."
"I also cry when I get mad at myself for being too happy."
Here's the full essay.
Chrissy showed her Instagram followers this sweet "Jack" tattoo this weekend.
via: InstagramAnd now tattoo artist Winter Stone has shown John's matching tatt.