John Stamos is opening up about what really happened after his DUI in 2015.
The 60-year-old recently reflected on the worst moments of his alcohol addiction.
In a new interview with PEOPLE, Stamos recalled how often he was drinking and how his DUI pushed him to finally get clean.
Following reports of the DUI in 2015, it was revealed that the actor checked himself into a residential program for the treatment of substance abuse.
Following the incident, the actor tweeted a thank you to his fans, writing: “Thanks to everyone for their love & support. I’m home & well.”
Now, more than seven years later, he’s opening up about his mental state during that time, revealing what was really happening behind the scenes.
The Fuller House star was hospitalized for one night following his arrest.
Despite the scary situation, Stamos didn’t want to change his life right away, falling into the same patterns as soon as he got home.
“When I did get the DUI … I came home from the hospital that night, I sat down, I drank a bottle of wine just to forget what just happened,” he told PEOPLE on Wednesday.
“And I never sobered up,” he continued.
“When you sober up, you have to look at the ugly truth, so you keep drinking,” Stamos admitted.
In the midst of the chaos, Stamos recalls immediately having to leave for Canada after the DUI to film My Big Fat Greek Wedding 2.
Despite the arrest, he admits he kept drinking to avoid the reality of the mess he was in.
“So I was kind of just loosely buzzed through the shooting of that movie,” the 60-year-old revealed.
During a recent appearance on Mayim Bialik’s podcast Bialik Breakdown, Stamos told the actor hat he doesn’t even remember filming the movie because he was so “liquored up.”
He went on to admit that the DUI and filming My Big Fat Greek Wedding 2 was his lowest point.
“That was bottom,” he explained. “But I didn’t get it and I just numbed myself for a few weeks after that.”
“And when I came home, my sisters were like, ‘Okay, it’s time to go, we found this place.’ And I’m like, ‘Okay, I’m ready,’” Stamos said.
He entered a 30-day substance abuse program in July 2015.
The musician revealed to Bialik that he was ready to change after hating the person he had become.
“I hated it,” Stamos said about his mentality at the time. “I really hated the way I felt, hated disappointing people, hated myself.”
“…hated looking in the mirror going, ‘This is not who my parents raised. What am I doing? Who is this idiot?’ I would be so embarrassed,” he said on the podcast.
“I had everything growing up. I had a beautiful childhood. I had no excuse to f*** my life up. And I did and it made me sick,” Stamos said.
In an interview with USA TODAY ahead of the release of his memoir in October, he said what began as “liquid courage” to get through Cabaret became a ritual of “drinking a bottle of wine every performance.”
“Writing about (the DUI) just made me sick to my stomach because I could’ve killed somebody,” he said.
“It was just gross where I’d gotten to, where I threw all my family values, morals and beliefs that I’d had for so many years right out the window,” Stamos said.
The actor began his sobriety journey with an Alcoholics Anonymous treatment program in Utah.
He went on to tell the outlet that getting sober has played “a big part (in) my fairytale ending.”
“Addiction runs rampant these days, and I just wanted to show people that if I could get through it then anyone can,” Stamos said.
“And without it, if I didn’t sober up, I would not have a family. I would not have a son. I would not have a wife,” he admitted. “I don’t even know if I’d be alive.”