Trigger Warning: Suicide, self-harm.
Rapper Lil Wayne has offered to financially support the ex-police officer who saved his life when he was just twelve years old.
The thirty-eight-year-old revealed that when he was a child, he tried to commit suicide, during a candid interview with Fox Sports analyst Emmanuel Acho. Wayne emphasized that he was opening up about his mental health issues in the hopes that it will help other young people take the issue more seriously and rather than brushing their dark feelings under the rug, they will get the help they need.
"[I'm] hoping I can help anyone else out there who's dealing with mental health problems by... being vulnerable," Wayne said during an episode of Acho's YouTube series Uncomfortable Conversations. "To me, I look at it by being brave and stepping up."
Wayne was exceptionally honest with the former NFL star, revealing that his mental health started deteriorating at an extremely young age. He was only ten years old when he started feeling desperately low until he reached the point of contemplating his existence. Things got worse just before he hit his teen years as the rapper actually tried taking his own life via what was known for a long time as an "accidental shooting."
The heartbreaking incident was triggered after an argument with his mom, who slashed his dreams of becoming a rapper and even threatened to throw out a bunch of the stuff he had written.
"[The] main thought was, 'I'm gonna show you.' So I picked up the phone, I called the police. Yes, I knew where she kept her gun. And it was in her bedroom. And so I went in her bedroom, grabbed the gun – I already made the phone call – looked in the mirror…"
Wayne admitted that he first put the gun to his head but the gesture alone scared him so much that he shot himself in the chest. He revealed that he had immediately passed out and woke up to the sound of police knocking on his mom's bedroom door and in came Uncle Bob, the police officer who saved his life.
"You're not going to die on me," Uncle Bob, also known as Robert Hoobler, told him.
Wayne then went onto discuss how this has changed his perspective on mental health and the severity of the topic.
"You have no one to vent to, no one to get this out to," he said. "You can't bring it to your friends at school – you're still trying to be cool to them. You're not trying to let them know you've got something going on at home.
"There is no bar to measure how real [mental health is]. It's real. It's so real that if someone even has the guts, the heart, the bravery, whatever to at least admit that they have something going on up there that they're not sure about, it's so real that we should only react in the realest way possible."
And of course, fame added a new layer to the issues.
"You start to think, '[Does] anyone actually care? Will it matter when it's all over? Will I matter?' And that's always the question. Will you matter when it's all over? Not the things you've done, the things you've done for everyone else, but will you actually matter to them? But most of all to you?"
Thankfully, Wayne also added that he's doing well these days and that he's "so happy" with his life. He's even reached out to Uncle Bob to make sure he's doing alright after it was rumored that he had passed away. But it was confirmed that he had not.
It's great to see how far Wayne's come in his mental health journey and we're glad that he's doing his best to help others too.
You can watch the full interview below:
Mental Health Doesn't Discriminate feat. Lil Wayne - Uncomfortable Conversations with Emmanuel Acho www.youtube.com